It's been 2 years since I was in a serious relationship. Sure, I dated a couple of times in the past years and stopped “dating” someone just last week, and yet, here I am, on Valentine's Day, single.
I finally decided that after spending the past two Valentine's Day as a single woman, it's about time I let my heart speak.
I've said this before and I'll say it again - I am happy about where I am now. Do I miss being in a relationship? Of course, I do!
I miss being with someone I consider my partner in crime.
I miss doing things as a couple - traveling, dining out, watching movies, shopping, etc.
I miss making passionate love with someone I deeply love.
I miss cuddling in bed with someone while listening to his heart beating.
I miss hearing the words "I love you" and "I miss you".
I miss missing someone.
I miss the butterflies in my stomach.
I miss holding hands while walking. ^_^
I miss all that. Sure, the feeling makes me feel sad at times, but I'm hopeful.
I believe that being with the wrong men and in relationships that didn't work, I've grown as a person, as a woman, as a lover. I've learned lessons the hard way.
I've been heartbroken.
I fell helplessly in love.
I've been hurt.
I've cried a river.
I laughed hard.
I felt genuinely and passionately loved.
And after all that and what I've experienced in the past decade and a half of my life, I made a conscious decision to never let myself settle again. THIS is why I'm still single.
If I wanted to be in a relationship, I would be in one. My friends who know me from a long time ago know this to be true. But, I am not in a hurry. Not anymore.