Category Archives: All about me

Probinsyana

As soon as I got out of the cab, I could literally smell and feel it – the warm breeze filled with the scent of tree leaves and the sea. Ahhhh I’m home.

Since I moved out of our home in Malabon last year, I’ve only been back here exactly 3 times. This Holy Week, I made a promise to my nanay that I’ll be staying here until Easter Sunday. And so here I am. 😀

It’s funny how I tease my nanay, saying that I don’t like Malabon anymore, in my own version of the conyo twang.

“My gaaddddd. It’s so init here! Like, oh my gosh!!”

She laughed so hard, but I know she can feel there’s some truth to what I’m saying. But to be honest, though I completely enjoy living in Makati now since almost everything I need is accessible, I still love the “serenity” of living here in Malabon. I had to use double quotes for serenity since this isn’t your normal kind of peace and quiet. 😀

Just the other day, I had this small talk with a colleague. I asked him where he’ll be staying for the long weekend, and when it was my turn to tell him I’ll be going home to Malabon, he said,

“Di ba mahihirapan kang umuwi ng probinsya nun?”

Of course, I reacted, quite loudly.

“Grabe ka namannnnnnn!! Di pa probinsya ang Malabon!!”

He apologized profusely while I laughed my effing ass off. 😀

It wasn’t the first time someone mistakenly thought Malabon is no longer a part of Metro Manila. We’re located at the top-most part of the Metro, and you’re one tisod / tumbling away from Obando, Bulacan. People here already have their own accent (we call it punto). So, yeah, I understand why they’d think that. 😀

His reaction made me stop and wonder whenever I go out to our mini-patio, our backyard and the streets. It does feel a li’l provincial over here. You hear the gentle yet roaring sounds of trikes (that use motorbikes) passing by. There are trees surrounding our home, but they’re not ours. 😀 I can actually pick green mangoes from our neighbor ’cause the tree’s branch reaches out up to our front gate.

And, of course, there’s this relaxing feeling that you’re at home and you don’t have to worry about anything else. I missed my nanay’s loving attention, preparing lunch and dinner, making sure we’re eating 4-5 times a day. 😀

But with all that said, I also miss being independent. At my age, I don’t want to be a burden on my nanay anymore, which is also one of the reasons I decided to move out despite my worries and concerns about living far away from her. I want her to have less worries in life and just enjoy. I don’t want her to continue taking care of me (she just couldn’t help it, I tell yah!) because I want her to think of herself for once. She’s been so selfless my whole life. She deserves to have a worry-free life after all the sacrifices she’s done for me and my bro.

My bro decided to go back and live here again with her. Though I’m happy my nanay will have someone to accompany her, the thoughts of my bro being a burden to her again, and him not developing into someone who’s truly independent of our nanay’s care, are weighing down on me. I guess time will tell where this will lead us. All I know is I need to be more independent, take care of myself, and be on my own.

In the meantime, I’ll enjoy my last 2 days here at our ‘province’. 😀

Long Weekend

Finally, a much-deserved break. I started at my new job almost a month ago, and it already feels like I’ve been with the company for months now. No, I’m not complaining. 😀 I’m just saying I feel like I’m where I’m supposed to be in terms of my career in social media, and I feel so comfortable with my responsibilities, my team and my newfound friends. 🙂 I’m still adjusting, but my new friends are making it enjoyable. 🙂

It’s like this job is the culmination of all that has happened to me in the past 5 years. Everything that I experienced, that I went through, led me to here. That’s why I always believe that things happen for a reason… you just have to be patient. 😉

My mind has been filled with work-related stuff the past few weeks, and it’s only tonight that I finally got to rest my brain and just relax.

I just got out of the shower – a 2-hour shower. Okay, I wasn’t really taking a bath the whole time 😀 but I did a few lady stuff that I haven’t had time to do because I was too busy with work, blogging, and spending time with family and friends. It’s like my brain doesn’t need to think now… so I’m just typing away as I write this blog.

I’m thinking of finishing my 30-day single woman challenge, which is now turning into the 30-month blogging challenge hahaha 😀

Anyway, I’m off to playing Diablo 3. FINALLY!! 😀 *poof*

I’m Touched….

I don’t know what has gotten into me, but lately, I noticed that little things touch my heart enough that I end up crying. Though I’m glad I cry because these things warm my heart, I’m left wondering what happened in the last few years that led to this.

Just yesterday, at lunch, I couldn’t help but cry while my officemates and I were talking about dogs. I pictured our beloved dog Marcel and remembered everything he used to do around me. I miss him terribly. I haven’t seen him for the longest time, and he’s the only reason now that I’d want to go back home to Malabon (well, since our nanay visits us here at our new home in Makati every 2 weeks).

Whenever I read something sad or heartwarming in social media, especially on Humans of New York, I can’t help but tear up a little. I just feel like people would think I’m emotional, but to be honest, I’m not. I just get touched by small things easily. I’m guessing it’s because I sometimes feel hopeless that our world would ever be a better place. “Faith in humanity, restored” is probably what’s causing all these random outbursts. 😀

I feel like I’m a nicer person now than before. I have more empathy towards others. That’s one of the good things about this whole crybaby thing. Or maybe I’ve become more of an emotional sponge now. Nevertheless, I know I need to keep this in check. But how can I when it’s actually a good thing to know that I’m not heartless after all?! 😀

All Packed Up For Our Vacation! (Day 38 #100HappyDays)

All my bags are packed, I’m ready to go…

Finally, I was able to pack my stuff for our 4-day, 3-night vacation in Zambales. I initially wanted to use a stroller, but my bro complained and harassed me to switch back to this black, carry-on bag. So, I did. 😀

Packing my bags

I’m a li’l OC when it comes to packing, so I’m not good at it. I tend to bring more than I needed because I feel like I MIGHT use them or that I need choices. 😀

Thankfully, I had everything I needed all packed and compact in this one bag. — update after our vacation weee! 😀

All my important stuff are in my body bag, which I’ll never remove away from my… errr… body. So, I’m good! This is the first time that I actually packed “light” for a 4D3N vacation. Kaya ko naman pala! Hahaha

Taking Long Baths (Day 36 #100HappyDays)

One of the things I enjoy the most when I’m at home is taking long baths. I can stay in the bathroom for an hour or so. Imagine how much longer I’d want to stay there if we had a bath tub. 😀

Bath - wash your worries away

Not my feet, obviously. 😛

Taking baths relaxes me. When I’m stressed or feeling a li’l down, a nice, long bath helps clear my mind and somehow, it washes away my worries for the day.

My usual bath routine goes like this: shampoo, body scrubbing, face scrub (2-3x a week), rinse everything, then I soap up twice using 2 different soaps (hahah), and then I use a hair conditioner if I’m going out. The scrubbing usually takes the longest time.

And then my after-bath routine takes about 30-45 minutes. 😀 I take my baths seriously. 😛

Today, I think I took about 1 hour and 40 minutes inside the bathroom. It helped clear my mind of some anxiety I’ve been feeling the past few days. I feel much better now.