I hate to admit it, but I have a long list of phobias, some of which may just be considered pag-iinarte by other people (like my bro), but most are real fears that have somehow hindered me from enjoying life to the fullest. However, since I reached my 30s, I felt like it’s about time I conquered some of these fears ’cause I’m not getting any younger. Sure, call it quarter life crisis, but I am more willing now to face the scenarios that scare me the most.
I have this crazy fear of heights and closed spaces. So imagine how scared I was when we decided to go spelunking at Ugong Rock cave in Palawan last year (for our birthday celebration) AND ziplined my fricking way down afterwards. I was honestly thinking at that time, “Are you seriously going to do this?! Face your fear of closed spaces AND heights?!”. I thought I’d die and won’t make it at the end.
Preparing for my turn to zipline after an EXHAUSTING time spelunking at Ugong Rock. Not my most flattering photo, but I am so proud of myself for being able to do this. 😀 It was an unplanned adventure, hence the getup. I went through the cave in FLIP FLOPS. 😛
Well, guess what – I’m still here, typing away. So #SUCKIT!! 😀
Now, what’s the relevance of this to my #100HappyDays entry for today?! Well, the past few days, I’ve been stressed about my right eye after the laser ‘surgery’ over the weekend (it was successful and I can see clearly again). I was feeling scared about complications that might happen in the future and I felt like I won’t be able to do things I thought I could after my Refractive Lens Exchange surgery last year.
Thankfully, when I woke up earlier, an exhilarating feeling took over me… a realization of some sort. WHAT THE HECK WAS I THINKING?! There are a thousand other things that could happen to me but I chose to ignore them, and I underwent that surgery so I can do more, and here I am, succumbing to my fear of something that might NOT actually happen. Then just a few minutes ago, my bro showed me these videos of women surfing, swimming and riding carabaos. It brought me back to my sane self who wants to experience the beauty of Mother Earth through traveling. I am now brushing off my worries again so I can move forward.
One of the next phobias I want to conquer is my fear of being trapped underwater. I don’t know how to swim. Okay, I know how to swim, but you won’t see me swimming about where the depth won’t allow me to touch the bottom of the sea/water/pool/whatever easily with my feet. I’m thinking of taking swimming lessons so I can swim fearlessly like my bro. I want to conquer this fear hopefully this 2014. 🙂
Wish me luck! 😉