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Probinsyana

As soon as I got out of the cab, I could literally smell and feel it – the warm breeze filled with the scent of tree leaves and the sea. Ahhhh I’m home.

Since I moved out of our home in Malabon last year, I’ve only been back here exactly 3 times. This Holy Week, I made a promise to my nanay that I’ll be staying here until Easter Sunday. And so here I am. πŸ˜€

It’s funny how I tease my nanay, saying that I don’t like Malabon anymore, in my own version of the conyo twang.

“My gaaddddd. It’s so init here! Like, oh my gosh!!”

She laughed so hard, but I know she can feel there’s some truth to what I’m saying. But to be honest, though I completely enjoy living in Makati now since almost everything I need is accessible, I still love the “serenity” of living here in Malabon. I had to use double quotes for serenity since this isn’t your normal kind of peace and quiet. πŸ˜€

Just the other day, I had thisΒ small talk with a colleague. I asked him where he’ll be staying for the long weekend, and when it was my turn to tell him I’ll be going home to Malabon, he said,

“Di ba mahihirapan kang umuwi ng probinsya nun?”

Of course, I reacted, quite loudly.

“Grabe ka namannnnnnn!! Di pa probinsya ang Malabon!!”

He apologized profusely while I laughed my effing ass off. πŸ˜€

It wasn’t the first time someone mistakenly thought Malabon is no longer a part of Metro Manila. We’re located at the top-most part of the Metro, and you’re one tisod / tumbling away from Obando, Bulacan. People here already have their own accent (we call it punto). So, yeah, I understand why they’d think that. πŸ˜€

His reaction made me stop and wonder whenever I go out to our mini-patio, our backyard and the streets. It does feel a li’l provincial over here. You hear the gentle yet roaring sounds of trikes (that use motorbikes) passing by. There are trees surrounding our home, but they’re not ours. πŸ˜€ I can actually pick green mangoes from our neighbor ’cause the tree’s branch reaches out up to our front gate.

And, of course, there’s this relaxing feeling that you’re at home and you don’t have to worry about anything else. I missed my nanay’s loving attention, preparing lunch and dinner, making sure we’re eating 4-5 times a day. πŸ˜€

But with all that said, I also miss being independent. At my age, I don’t want to be a burden on my nanay anymore, which is also one of the reasons I decided to move out despite my worries and concerns about living far away from her. I want her to have less worries in life and just enjoy. I don’t want her to continue taking care of me (she just couldn’t help it, I tell yah!)Β because I want her to think of herself for once. She’s been so selfless my whole life. She deserves to have a worry-free life after all the sacrifices she’s done for me and my bro.

My bro decided to go back and live here again with her. Though I’m happy my nanay will have someone to accompany her, the thoughts of my bro being a burden to her again, and him not developing into someone who’s truly independent of our nanay’s care, are weighing down on me. I guess time will tell where this will lead us. All I know is I need to be more independent, take care of myself, and be on my own.

In the meantime, I’ll enjoy my last 2 days here at our ‘province’. πŸ˜€

Goodbye, Lucas. See You Soon.

I’ve never been good with goodbyes. And this time is no different. It’s like a big chunk of my heart was carved out and there’s one empty hole I don’t know how I’ll ever fill up again.

I loved him to pieces. We all did and in a way, he brought our family together. We talk about how playful he’d been, or what new tricks he got up his sleeves. Looking for him as soon as I wake up was one of the things I look forward to everyday. Now, I won’t be seeing him anymore and it just breaks my heart.

Goodbye, Lucas

I’ve had too much heartaches from our pets who have passed on in the past years. There’s our 10+ year old dog Stacie who we love deeply. And, now, Lucas. πŸ™

In all honesty, I’m starting to hate having a pet. Losing them as early as a few months because of a sickness they can’t take and medicines that won’t work or are too late to have an effect – makes me weaker. But, I will continue loving our pets. I’m just not so sure about how much I can give anymore.

Losing Lucas just a few hours ago made me realize many things. His passing has taught me lessons that I hope I’ll truly learn from and affect me. These lessons, I can’t reveal or tell you now ’cause this just breaks my heart. But, one thing I’m sure won’t ever change – my capacity to love someone as deeply as I could even with the fear of losing them in the future.

I also realized something about myself that I didn’t know I had in me. I’m not sure if it’s a good quality, but I learned that I don’t give up on anyone or anything easily. I fight until I know there’s nothing else I can do. And I would like to think that Lucas did exactly the same thing – giving me that ounce of hope that he’ll be okay because he can hear how sad I’m becoming. I really hoped I could’ve done better. πŸ™

Lucas after someone found himKakabalik mo lang samin eh, tapos iniwan mo kami agad. πŸ™

Lucas, wherever you are, I wish I could’ve done more. I hope you felt how much we wanted you to stay, but we know it was beyond your control. Thank you for all the laughter. For all your dirty tricks that made my days and nights brighter and lighter. Thank you for fighting ’til your last breath. I will love you always and forever. I hope you meet Stacie soon. Please tell her she’s missed. And you will be missed too. See you in heaven. πŸ™‚

Lucas stretchingWe’ll do your kitty yoga up in heaven soon. I love you, Lucas. πŸ™‚

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I end this post with this touching story which helped lighten this burden for me. I guess this is why, even though we are aware of the fact that animals or our pets live a shorter life, we still take the risk of adopting or accepting new pets again into our lives. They’re just too awesome. πŸ™‚

 

Rites of Passage

Some of the most poignant moments I spend as a veterinarian are those spent with my clients assisting the transition of my animal patients from this world to the next. When living becomes a burden, whether from pain or loss of normal functions, I can help a family by ensuring that their beloved pet has an easy passing. Making this final decision is painful, and I have often felt powerless to comfort the grieving owners.

That was before I met Shane.

I had been called to examine a ten-year-old blue heeler named Belker who had developed a serious health problem. The dog’s owners – Ron, his wife, Lisa, and their little boy, Shane – were all very attached to Belker and they were hoping for a miracle. I examined Belker and found he was dying of cancer.

I told the family there were no miracles left for Belker, and offered to perform the euthanasia procedure for the old dog in their home. As we made arrangements, Ron and Lisa told me they thought it would be good for the four-year-old Shane to observe the procedure. They felt Shane could learn something from the experience.

The next day, I felt the familiar catch in my throat as Belker’s family surrounded him. Shane seemed so calm, petting the old dog for the last time, that I wondered if he understood what was going on.

Within a few minutes, Belker slipped peacefully away. The little boy seemed to accept Belker’s transition without any difficulty or confusion. We sat together for a while after Belker’s death, wondering aloud about the sad fact that animal lives are shorter than human lives.

Shane, who had been listening quietly, piped up, “I know why.”

Startled, we all turned to him. What came out of his mouth next stunned me – I’d never heard a more comforting explanation.

He said, “Everybody is born so that they can learn how to live a good life – like loving everybody and being nice, right?” The four-year-old continued, “Well, animals already know how to do that, so they don’t have to stay as long.”

By Robin Downing, D.V.M. from Chicken Soup for the Pet Lover’s Soul

Goodbye, Lucas. See You Soon.

I’ve never been good with goodbyes. And this time is no different. It’s like a big chunk of my heart was carved out and there’s one empty hole I don’t know how I’ll ever fill up again.

I loved him to pieces. We all did and in a way, he brought our family together. We talk about how playful he’d been, or what new tricks he got up his sleeves. Looking for him as soon as I wake up was one of the things I look forward to everyday. Now, I won’t be seeing him anymore and it just breaks my heart.

Goodbye, Lucas

I’ve had too much heartaches from our pets who have passed on in the past years. There’s our 10+ year old dog Stacie who we love deeply. And, now, Lucas. πŸ™

In all honesty, I’m starting to hate having a pet. Losing them as early as a few months because of a sickness they can’t take and medicines that won’t work or are too late to have an effect – makes me weaker. But, I will continue loving our pets. I’m just not so sure about how much I can give anymore.

Losing Lucas just a few hours ago made me realize many things. His passing has taught me lessons that I hope I’ll truly learn from and affect me. These lessons, I can’t reveal or tell you now ’cause this just breaks my heart. But, one thing I’m sure won’t ever change – my capacity to love someone as deeply as I could even with the fear of losing them in the future.

I also realized something about myself that I didn’t know I had in me. I’m not sure if it’s a good quality, but I learned that I don’t give up on anyone or anything easily. I fight until I know there’s nothing else I can do. And I would like to think that Lucas did exactly the same thing – giving me that ounce of hope that he’ll be okay because he can hear how sad I’m becoming. I really hoped I could’ve done better. πŸ™

Lucas after someone found himKakabalik mo lang samin eh, tapos iniwan mo kami agad. πŸ™

Lucas, wherever you are, I wish I could’ve done more. I hope you felt how much we wanted you to stay, but we know it was beyond your control. Thank you for all the laughter. For all your dirty tricks that made my days and nights brighter and lighter. Thank you for fighting ’til your last breath. I will love you always and forever. I hope you meet Stacie soon. Please tell her she’s missed. And you will be missed too. See you in heaven. πŸ™‚

Lucas stretchingWe’ll do your kitty yoga up in heaven soon. I love you, Lucas. πŸ™‚

———————————————————————————-

I end this post with this touching story which helped lighten this burden for me. I guess this is why, even though we are aware of the fact that animals or our pets live a shorter life, we still take the risk of adopting or accepting new pets again into our lives. They’re just too awesome. πŸ™‚

 

Rites of Passage

Some of the most poignant moments I spend as a veterinarian are those spent with my clients assisting the transition of my animal patients from this world to the next. When living becomes a burden, whether from pain or loss of normal functions, I can help a family by ensuring that their beloved pet has an easy passing. Making this final decision is painful, and I have often felt powerless to comfort the grieving owners.

That was before I met Shane.

I had been called to examine a ten-year-old blue heeler named Belker who had developed a serious health problem. The dog’s owners – Ron, his wife, Lisa, and their little boy, Shane – were all very attached to Belker and they were hoping for a miracle. I examined Belker and found he was dying of cancer.

I told the family there were no miracles left for Belker, and offered to perform the euthanasia procedure for the old dog in their home. As we made arrangements, Ron and Lisa told me they thought it would be good for the four-year-old Shane to observe the procedure. They felt Shane could learn something from the experience.

The next day, I felt the familiar catch in my throat as Belker’s family surrounded him. Shane seemed so calm, petting the old dog for the last time, that I wondered if he understood what was going on.

Within a few minutes, Belker slipped peacefully away. The little boy seemed to accept Belker’s transition without any difficulty or confusion. We sat together for a while after Belker’s death, wondering aloud about the sad fact that animal lives are shorter than human lives.

Shane, who had been listening quietly, piped up, “I know why.”

Startled, we all turned to him. What came out of his mouth next stunned me – I’d never heard a more comforting explanation.

He said, “Everybody is born so that they can learn how to live a good life – like loving everybody and being nice, right?” The four-year-old continued, “Well, animals already know how to do that, so they don’t have to stay as long.”

By Robin Downing, D.V.M. from Chicken Soup for the Pet Lover’s Soul

I Miss You, Sun

It’s a gloomy Tuesday morning and I can’t concentrate on what I’m doing because of the heavy rains and strong gusts of wind I can hear from outside. Photos upon photos of flooded areas around the Philippines is starting to scare me.

I can’t remember exactly the last time when it didn’t rain the whole day. I thought September will be the scariest month for me because of the memories of typhoon Pedring. I guess, because of the climate change and what is happening to our planet today, the typhoon season decided to come in early. Well, I wish that’s the case because if this is just a preview, I don’t think Metro Manila can take it any more.

Gloomy Weather

I miss the sun shining outside. Though I complain about the heat, I want to feel the warmth from the sun again. And I know a lot of my countrymen now wish the same – sana umaraw na po.

I was worried earlier because I thought my nanay still has to come to work amidst this threatening weather. I was relieved to find out that even most of the government offices declared no work day today, except to those who are part of disaster operations.

To everyone who are braving the weather today, especially those who are working to help our kababayan in rescue operations, thank you and I pray that you all be safe.

And to all my fellow Filipinos, let’s all pray that the sun will come shining on us again very soon. If not today, very soon.

Stay safe eveyone!

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