Category Archives: Relationships / Love

What If…

…he’s really my “the one who got away”? Maybe. I know he’ll love me so much, he’ll not know what to do with all of the emotions and the passion.

What if we ended up together? Though I’m happy where I am now – with a stressful yet fulfilling job and enjoying my singlehood – times like tonight make me think about the what-could’ve-beens.

“Ikaw kasi eh, bakit mo ko iniwan…”

It didn’t really sound like a question. It sounded more like, “you could’ve been happy with me if you didn’t leave me.” And in my head, I’m like, “were we even together?!” 😀

The real question is, will we even still be together if we didn’t break up at that very moment over a decade ago that he seems to still vividly remember? Knowing me, I feel like we wouldn’t end up together no matter what choose-your-own-adventure sequence of events we follow. There’s not much there to hold on to that could’ve kept us together.

I guess it’s better this way. He has his own family now, with smart kids and a lovely wife, who has no idea about this thing between her husband and I. I’d rather stay as the long-time friend he’s still very much close with.

Dang. I’m still thinking about what he said and what could’ve been. I knew he was in love with me back then. Head over heels. But he felt like I wouldn’t take him seriously. I wished he tried. We did have this mutual understanding, and in some way, I did feel something for him. He didn’t have the courage to pursue me ’cause he was scared of what I could do to him emotionally. I really wish he did try. I’m sure he would’ve been one of the most memorable loves of my life. 🙂

Okay, enough of this shit. 😀

Love Letters

Call me sentimental, but I have kept love letters/emails I received from ex-boyfriends, suitors and friends. There’s something about a person pouring his or heart out in a letter, that’s why I value it so much. This is also why I love writing love letters.

What happened to romance and long love letters

One of the things I deeply miss is receiving love letters. With the advent of social networking sites like Facebook and chat apps like Viber, people have become lazy. They now post publicly on their Facebook profile walls to confess or express their love for someone. They take photos together and share them on their Instagram or Facebook accounts. To be honest, I don’t find it romantic at all. I prefer the kind of affection that is for my eyes, heart and mind only.

I was going through these 23 simple love notes on Buzzfeed and I couldn’t help but tear up a little. I have not received a love letter since my last serious relationship that ended back in 2010. All I have are a few flirty texts because most of the ones I received, I have already deleted after I stopped dating the senders.

I miss writing love letters. I’m good at it. I’m better at expressing my true feelings in writing. And I miss penning words of love to someone who I truly, madly, deeply love. And it’s one of my signs or indications that I am in love with someone – if I get this desire to write him a love letter.

true that!

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I’m No Plain Ol’ Housewife!

I have little respect for men who think women should be plain ol’ housewives. Wait, let me rephrase that. I am disgusted by men who think women, after getting married, should stay at home, take care of the kids, cook dinner for her husband, and be a full-on stay-at-home mom. Now, I don’t mean any disrespect towards women who CHOSE to stay at home for their kids because I am impressed by all their hard work. However, having a nanay who took care of my bro and I while keeping an 8-5 job, I am amazed by women like her who were able to attain work-family life balance.

The thing is, I’ve met many men who are intimidated by women who have a career and a strong desire to succeed in their lives, so they push this ideology that women are supposed to stay at home and be a housewife. Are you fucking kidding me? Are we in the 60s?!

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How I Met Your Mother : I’ll Miss You! (Day 23 #100HappyDays)

After almost 3 years of watching the show (yes, I got to it 6 years late), I saw the last 2 episodes of one of my favorite series – How I Met Your Mother. I already miss the gang of Robin, Lily, Marshall, Barney and, of course, Ted Mosby. 🙂

How I Met Your Mother

SPOILER ALERT! If you don’t want to know what happened in the finale, don’t read any further. Stop right here! Don’t say I didn’t warn you!

I was crying almost the entire time I was watching the final episodes. Though the show wasn’t always brilliant (c’mon, even Friends had its ups and downs – and I LOVED that series!), it was one of my favorites because it’s lighthearted, the cast and characters are adorable (yes, even Barney!), and I can somehow relate to Ted Mosby. 🙂

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On Forgiveness

I was watching a video about forgiveness earlier today and it reminded me that being able to forgive someone is actually something you can do for YOURSELF. They mentioned you don’t need the other person to ask for it before you forgive them, and I completely agree. It has happened to me more than once, but it can sometimes confuse you when you remember what happened… how the other person hurt you… how it affected your life. Can you really say you’ve forgiven someone when you can’t seem to forget the pain they’ve caused you?

Forgive because you deserve peace

I’ve been struggling with this thought for months now. They say forgiving someone makes YOU feel lighter because you let go of all the negative vibes and feelings. I believe I’ve already crossed that road of forgiveness because I don’t harbor any anger anymore. My feelings of hatred have been replaced with regret. I guess the thought of ‘what could have been’ is what affects me… how my life would’ve been completely different if that part of my life didn’t happen.

I want to believe I have forgiven two people in my life, but I feel like for us to completely forgive someone, some sort of conversation has to happen. Otherwise, there won’t be any closure and the painful past may continue to haunt us. However, with that said, I believe that it’s all up to us to let that happen. Thankfully, I’ve used everything that happened in my past to push me forward, so I really hope that down the road, I will find out for sure that I have completely forgiven these two people who have hurt me. And I hope I can tell them myself that I have forgiven them.

Forgive those who hurt you in the past

I’m not sure if I even made sense with this post, but I was just typing away all the thoughts that were coming to me earlier. I believe I’ve forgiven them, but whenever I remember what happened, I have to admit, there are pangs of pain and maybe a li’l anger that come back to me. The difference now is I don’t let that affect me, my mood or what I intend to do with my life moving forward. I believe we need a little reminder from time to time to somehow encourage us through recalling what pain we’ve managed to survive. 🙂

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